Been So Long....

Is been so long that I didn't blog. Now only I realize it. So for the past few months what had happen in my "Journey"?

Well, I achieved my "once in a lifetime only title" which is the "fast start" during end of February. Quite excited but still not that satisfy. Because my aim is to achieve my MDRT recognition before 15th of April 2011 as a gift for my birthday which is on 30th of April. And on top of that I still haven't achieve my Las Vegas trip yet, which the dateline is on 30th of April.

On top of that I also need to do recruitment in terms of expanding my business. Well, I'm having a little difficulties with that because usually I don't really know how to manage my time. So far I got a few list of friends that I want to recruit but I still haven't make a move yet.

Well, DarkPrince, get on track!!!! Move fast because I only had one chance, one opportunity to seize everything I ever wanted in one moment
Would I capture it? Or just let it slip?

What's my call? I think I shall make changes and go for it. FOCUS!!! TARGET!!! AIM!!!

Impossible??

Left about either 3days or 11days for me to increase the group sales become 100k, where and how am I going to do that? I planned to go for cold market but during this moment then going to be year end, I don't think strangers will agree to meet up. But if I'm going to target friends or warm market, I hope that they can help. Anyway, I prefer warm market rather than relatives or friends.

Dark Prince!!!! Need to rush up and then enjoy the best Christmas Eve and also New Year Eve.. Need to party all night long and have fun for the year 2010!!!

Don't miss it!! Please pray for me.

LeeHom - All The Things You Never Knew

蝴蝶眨几次眼睛
Hu die zha ji chi yan jing
How many times does a butterfly blink
才学会飞行
Cai xue hui fei xing
Before it learns to fly?
夜空洒满了星星
Ye kong sai man le xing xing
The sky is sprinkled over with countless stars
但几颗会落地
Dan ji ke hui luo di
But how many there will remain?

我飞行 当你坠落之际
Wo fei xing Dang ni zui luo zhi ji
Even as I fly, you fall
很靠近 还听见呼吸
Hen kao jing Hai ting jian hu xi
So close I can hear you breathe
对不起 我却没捉紧你
Dui bu qi Wo que mei zhuo jin ni
So sorry I didn't keep hold of you

你不知道我为什么离开你
Ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me li kai ni
You don't know why I had to leave you
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
Wo jian chi bu neng shuo fang ren ni ku qi
How could I ignore your every cry
你的泪滴想倾盆大雨 碎落满地
Ni de lei di xiang qing pen da yu Sui luo man di
All the while the downpour of your tears shattering the ground
在心里清晰
Zai xin li qing xi
So clearly pierced my heart
你不知道我为什么狠下心
Ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me hen xia xin
You don't know why I had to keep away
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
Pan xuan zai ni kan bu jian de gao kong li
Circling in the sky above, just out of sight
多的是 你不知道的事
Duo de shi Ni bu zi dao de shi
So many are the things you never knew

蝴蝶眨几次眼睛
Hu die zha ji chi yan jing
How many times does a butterfly blink
才学会飞行
Cai xue hui fei xing
Before it learns to fly?
夜空洒满了星星
Ye kong sai man le xing xing
The sky is sprinkled over with countless stars
但几颗会落地
Dan ji ke hui luo di
But how many there will remain?

我飞行 当你坠落之际
Wo fei xing Dang ni zui luo zhi ji
Even as I fly, you fall
很靠近 还听见呼吸
Hen kao jing Hai ting jian hu xi
So close I can hear you breathe
对不起 我却没捉紧你
Dui bu qi Wo que mei zhuo jin ni
So sorry I didn't keep hold of you

你不知道我为什么离开你
Ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me li kai ni
You don't know why I had to leave you
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
Wo jian chi bu neng shuo fang ren ni ku qi
How could I ignore your every cry
你的泪滴想倾盆大雨 碎落满地
Ni de lei di xiang qing pen da yu Sui luo man di
All the while the downpour of your tears shattering the ground
在心里清晰
Zai xin li qing xi
So clearly pierced my heart
你不知道我为什么狠下心
Ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me hen xia xin
You don't know why I had to keep away
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
Pan xuan zai ni kan bu jian de gao kong li
Circling in the sky above, just out of sight
多的是 你不知道的事
Duo de shi Ni bu zi dao de shi
So many are the things you never knew

我飞行 当你坠落之际
Wo fei xing Dang ni zui luo zhi ji
Even as I fly, you fall
噢噢~
o o

你不知道我为什么离开你
Ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me li kai ni
You don't know why I had to leave you
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
Wo jian chi bu neng shuo fang ren ni ku qi
How could I ignore your every cry
你的泪滴想倾盆大雨 碎落满地
Ni de lei di xiang qing pen da yu Sui luo man di
All the while the downpour of your tears shattering the ground
在心里清晰
Zai xin li qing xi
So clearly pierced my heart
你不知道我为什么狠下心
Ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me hen xia xin
You don't know why I had to keep away
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
Pan xuan zai ni kan bu jian de gao kong li
Circling in the sky above, just out of sight
多的是 你不知道的事
Duo de shi Ni bu zi dao de shi
So many are the things you never knew

New Life

I guess, I know what should I do now..
From now onwards I'm going to start a brand new life!!!
I'm going to stand up again.
With full of confidence and conquer everything that I'd lost.

I would like to see the changes in a short period of time.

Confused...

What can I do now?
I'm on my way to hell..
How to be alive again??

What can I do?
I don't know..
Who will help me?
No one...

I'm alone now...

Resist

I'm trying to stop my feeling, but still can't make it.
Every time that we get close, I'm even dreaming further.

Don't get close to you, I warn my own heart.
Don't keep dreaming of you, then could I do it?
Don't keep smiling at you, you might have no interest in me at all.

Then, could I resist my own heart?
And how could I constrain my own feeling?
I am not able to bear my great love.
I have to constrain it.

Being with the sadness, cos you look at me invisibly
No matter how difficult it is. I still have to keep resisting

Don't get close to you, I warn my own heart.
Don't keep dreaming of you, then could I do it?
Don't keep smiling at you, you might have no interest in me at all.

So, could I resist my own heart?
And how could I constrain my own feeling?
I am not able to bear my great love.
I have to constrain it.

Being with the sadness, cos you look at me invisibly.
No matter how difficult it is. No matter how I should do.
I have to make it. I have to stop loving you.



So, could I resist my own heart?
And how could you constrain my feeling?
I am not able to bear my great love.
I have to constrain it.

Being with the sadness, cos you look at me invisibly.
No matter how difficult it is. I still have to keep resisting

Could I resist my own feeling?
I still have to keep resisting

Family

What's the meaning of family? I don't think I really know about the true meaning of it. All these while, I'm alone, whether I'm in pain or not, I'm still alone, whether I need help or not, I'm still alone and they are not there to help me. Non of them help me. I'm always alone.

But how come when every time they need help, I will be the one that will help them? Am I stupid? Because when every time I need help, non of them help me. Today I think I lost everything because of them.

What can I do? Where to start? I guess I shall give up on this whole family relationship since no one there to help me. I feel like I'm actually like an animal because they gave birth and raise until certain period then just let me go, I live or die is all on my own.

I tried very hard not to help them, but in the end I lost the promise. I did help them but in the end I ended up like an animal that no family to care or even concern about. Every time I said something to them, they don't even take it seriously.

I wonder, how long I can stand if I keep on doing it. Well I guess, today will be the day 20th of September 2010,Monday at 10.35pm, I'm going to give up on this family.

Am I right or wrong, I don't know. But as I know if I keep on like that, I will never have any positive results. So my conclusion will be, I'm going to be alone!