New Life

I guess, I know what should I do now..
From now onwards I'm going to start a brand new life!!!
I'm going to stand up again.
With full of confidence and conquer everything that I'd lost.

I would like to see the changes in a short period of time.

Confused...

What can I do now?
I'm on my way to hell..
How to be alive again??

What can I do?
I don't know..
Who will help me?
No one...

I'm alone now...

Resist

I'm trying to stop my feeling, but still can't make it.
Every time that we get close, I'm even dreaming further.

Don't get close to you, I warn my own heart.
Don't keep dreaming of you, then could I do it?
Don't keep smiling at you, you might have no interest in me at all.

Then, could I resist my own heart?
And how could I constrain my own feeling?
I am not able to bear my great love.
I have to constrain it.

Being with the sadness, cos you look at me invisibly
No matter how difficult it is. I still have to keep resisting

Don't get close to you, I warn my own heart.
Don't keep dreaming of you, then could I do it?
Don't keep smiling at you, you might have no interest in me at all.

So, could I resist my own heart?
And how could I constrain my own feeling?
I am not able to bear my great love.
I have to constrain it.

Being with the sadness, cos you look at me invisibly.
No matter how difficult it is. No matter how I should do.
I have to make it. I have to stop loving you.



So, could I resist my own heart?
And how could you constrain my feeling?
I am not able to bear my great love.
I have to constrain it.

Being with the sadness, cos you look at me invisibly.
No matter how difficult it is. I still have to keep resisting

Could I resist my own feeling?
I still have to keep resisting

Family

What's the meaning of family? I don't think I really know about the true meaning of it. All these while, I'm alone, whether I'm in pain or not, I'm still alone, whether I need help or not, I'm still alone and they are not there to help me. Non of them help me. I'm always alone.

But how come when every time they need help, I will be the one that will help them? Am I stupid? Because when every time I need help, non of them help me. Today I think I lost everything because of them.

What can I do? Where to start? I guess I shall give up on this whole family relationship since no one there to help me. I feel like I'm actually like an animal because they gave birth and raise until certain period then just let me go, I live or die is all on my own.

I tried very hard not to help them, but in the end I lost the promise. I did help them but in the end I ended up like an animal that no family to care or even concern about. Every time I said something to them, they don't even take it seriously.

I wonder, how long I can stand if I keep on doing it. Well I guess, today will be the day 20th of September 2010,Monday at 10.35pm, I'm going to give up on this family.

Am I right or wrong, I don't know. But as I know if I keep on like that, I will never have any positive results. So my conclusion will be, I'm going to be alone!

Murni Discovery At Aman Suria

Well, the food not bad but one thing, the SERVICE of those staffs are extremely BAD!!!. Bloody hell, when every time I raise my hand to call them, they act didn't see it. Then when I want to pay my bill that time I saw a lady staff walked pass so I told that can I have my bill please and then she told me to wait. Okay, I'm fine with it but when waited for about 10minutes already and my bill still not here so I look at her and what I saw is that she is talking over there.

What the hell??? Seriously sometimes I wonder, people will go for service first or go for the environment first? Because as I know and from what I learned, an excellent service will overcome all of those problems. Come on Murni, change all those useless staffs and get a better one.

Does It Makes Sense?

Why certain people used their hands to eat? How come they only use it on rice but not noodle?? Hahaha..

speechless

Sometimes I want to say something out but I don't know how to start or even voice it out. I don't know how...

Why my life stuck with all the problems which are not from me?

When only can get better?

Where is my white horse that I used to ride?

When only that I can stand up and raise my sword?

When can I summon my great armies?

Or I just stuck here until old and unknown?